All the lovely early pregnancy things...

I'm trying really hard not to whine and complain this time around because no one really wants to listen to a whiney preggo! That, and I'm just trying to keep it to myself so as not to create unnecessary friction twixt Jes and I. (on a side note...I really love that word...twixt...such a cool and under-used word!)

But, I'm going to whine just a litttttle bit today because I feel like it. lol Up until a week or two ago I have felt really good! But the overdrive gag reflex has kicked into gear which SUCKS. The taste of my toothpaste in the back of my throat (you know that minty fresh feeling? yeah, that) makes me wanna puke. And then the whole brushing the molars things...lovely. Poor Nova gets all worried when I start in with the involuntary gagging...she gets this really concerned look on her face and asks me if I'm okay.
All day nausea kinda sucks rocks too...I had it with Faeryn too but hopefully it will go away soon. I've been lucky with my last two pregnancies that I haven't been sick as a dog for much longer past the 12 week mark, so I'm crossin' my fingers that this baby cooperates the same!
And then there's the whole body image thing. I really have a hard time with the weight gain part of pregnancy, even though cognitively I know that it's necessary! It seems like as soon as I start feeling really positive about my body, I get pregnant! Body image is something I struggle with a lot, so watching my pants get tighter and my middle get thicker without quite *looking* pregnant is hard for me. I was feeling really dumpy a few weeks ago because I felt like I was just packing on the pounds (I have no idea, really, because we don't own a scale...likely it is all in my fucked up head/sense of self). This week I feel better though, much less negative about it, at least. It'd be nice to blow my nose and not gag also...apparently the breath passing my throat kicks in that gag reflex. Sheesh.
Oh ya, and the weirdo pregnancy dreams I have! I get these intense, vivid awful nightmares when I'm pregnant. This morning I woke up bawling because I dreamed that Jesse threw himself into a river with a backpack full of rocks strapped to his back. Niiice.

I *swear* I felt the baby move the other night! It was really crazy...especially since I am only 9.5 weeks! But it was there, and quite strong. Totally unmistakable. I could feel it inside as well as outside with my hand...Nova felt it too! And no...I didn't just have to fart really loud *pbblltttt* lol I felt another little twinge last night but it wasn't nearly as distinguishable or long as the other day. I'm excited about this because I love love LOVE the movement part of pregnancy. I really love it all except for this first pukey/gaggy/yucky stuff.

Ok, off to go buy groceries on a Sunday afternoon at Stupidstore (SuperStore)...yes, I *am* crazy. But my fridge is echoing at me, so it's unfortunately necessary!