That was the sound of my baby's heartbeat Tuesday afternoon :) I had my first midwife appointment. I'm over 12 weeks already! Holy crap! I've already placed my order for a head-down baby so I can finally have my waterbirth lol It was so good to see Jane (my midwife) and start this whole process again. I go back and forth between trying not to psych myself out with the "can I do this again?? am I really strong enough??" and trying not to get too cocky because I deal with labour on such a regular basis. Sometimes, being a doula while going through the pregnancy and birth process is a great thing...I am well informed, know what my options are, it's not all Greek to me. But other times, I think it has the potential to work against me. It's hard not to doula yourself while in labour, and it's easy to forget that even though I am so familiar with labour and it's logistics, I still have to prepare myself spiritually and emotionally. That's my serious goal for this pregnancy...to really ground myself and connect with myself and my baby. Not that I haven't done that with my past pregnancies, but I feel compelled to really make sure I am paying attention to taking care of my emotional and spiritual self this time around. Maybe it's because I know that this is my last baby and I want to savour every little piece of this pregnancy I can, or maybe it's something more that I just haven't figured out yet. All I know is that I am completely and totally read to let it all go and give it up to the universe, whatever happens with this pregnancy and this labour/birth...Faeryn's birth definetely taught me that. I need to read Birthing From Within again...
Anyways, as I was saying...I have plans for this pregnancy and this year. Plans to keep searching for the ever elusive "balance", plans to start meditating more and doing yoga, plans to just keep trying to find myself and feel like I'm adding some meaning for myself in my life. I feel like a broken record lol
Ok, off to bed with me. It's 11:30pm on Christmas Eve, I have honey'd cranberry sauce cooling on the stovetop and my man is snoring away on the couch lol Happy Holidays everyone
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I think you're only 7 days behind me, Mikael! You're due July 10ish right? I'm the 3rdish...
This baby will be at home for me too...well s/he better be at least!! Like I said, I've already put in my order for a head-down baby thankyouverymuch lol
I don't know where the apprehension comes from...possibly because we *know* what's coming and how hard yet rewarding it is? I am terrified I will tear this time, because I've gotten so lucky the last two times and come away with nary a scratch.
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