I keep meaning to write here, but it always gets put off lately. I feel like I have been non-stop busy since February and I'm starting to feel weary of it. Between being the president of the CDA (and it has been one hell of a first year of presidency...oh the doula drama! it's been one freaking issue after another), being pregnant, doing my doula thing (interviews, meetings, births, postpartum visits, phone calls, emails....), applying for and getting accepted to midwifery school, parenting and gearing up to homeschool my almost-2 and almost-4 year olds, my house, the chores, cooking, etc etc etc....
my head feels like it's spinning sometimes! I am looking forward to the warm weather, and especially to summer. Not just because this baby will arrive then, but also because I won't have CDA obligations anymore for a while (we break for the summer months) and I won't be doulaing anymore (although having a newborn will sort of replace that *wink*). No more meetings, no more driving all over the city, no more being on call and the stress of that...I am looking forward to the break. And I know, I will have a newborn...but newborns are different than going to meetings and discussing issues and matters and information and planning and organizing and all that.

I'm feeling kind of overwhelmed lately, a lot is going on and I feel like I'm just sort of standing in the middle of it with my jaw agape because I can't believe it's all happening.
And sad...it seems like everyone I love leaves me lately! Last summer THREE of my friends moved to BC...two of whom I am pretty close with and love dearly and I miss a whole lot. And now, my best girl has decided to move her family to Edmonton in 2 weeks. It's apparently only going to be temporary...just for a year...but I am so so sad about it. And I think that she may not come back either...who knows what will happen in that year, you know? I know it's for the best for right now, but it sucks asshole and I miss her already. 8 years of friendship and we've had a lot of ups and downs, but I love her with my everything and I know the feeling's mutual.

*sigh* and blah...it's just been one of those days where the hormones run high and so do the emotions and it's all just...meh.
off to bed with me