I was waiting for it...and here it is. Hello hormone freakiness. I spent the better part of yesterday crying my face off over nothing and everything. It all started with watching a totally beautiful video of the birth pics that my doula took during my labour and birth with Indigo. I bawled and didn't really stop all day.
A lot of people I know have said that the three week mark was a really emotional/hormonal/tough one for them. This hasn't been my experience until this time around. This week has been hard and I'm sure it is a culmination of several things, including the fact that Jes has gone back to work.
I'm mostly just ready for the crying to cease. Both on my part and on Faeryn's part. She's been crying a LOT lately when I ask her to wait to nurse or stop nursing and it's just been hard to deal with. My happy happy spunky kid has never cried so much in her life as she has the past 3 weeks I think. It breaks my heart and makes me feel like one shit-ass mama, that's for sure. I know that this will pass and she/we will come out okay, but the interim sucks.
Needless to say, I have gotten nothing done for school this week. But, that would actually be right on par with the goals we set at last week's study group since we actually didn't set any at all LOL!
It's late, I should go to bed.
1 comment:
i sometimes think crying is like rain....it's entirely necessary for everything to grow and flourish, but when it's raining, it's difficult to do anything other than just sink into it, be sad, be angry, be up and down....when it clears, you will be glad you let come down.
and babe, i understand that faeryn's tears make you feel like a shit-ass mama, but , but - you are a wonderful-ass mama!!!!
*hugs*
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