The 100th post

I know I know...I'm crappy at posting to my blog. I'm sure any of you who read this (*does* anyone read it????) have figured that out already.
I could give you a million excuses...I have three kids, I just had a baby, my two year old climbs things when unsupervised, my floors needed washing, I have laundry to fold, schoolwork...but those are just that...excuses.
In truth, I am a procrastinator. I have very good intentions to do so many things, but a lot of those things don't get done. I'm also a list-maker, which actually helps me to deal with my procrastinatory parts...when I don't procrastinate about making the list. LOL!

Life is full around here, but I still feel as though I don't accomplish enough. Jesse has been off work for 2 months now after injuring his ankle at work. He had an MRI a couple weeks ago where they discovered that he has torn most of the ligaments in his ankle completely and needs to have surgery to repair them. Whee! Having him home has been a blessing and a burden to me. A blessing because we are basically getting the parental leave that we had wanted him to take initially after Indigo was born (we had decided against it because the EI would have only been 59% of his regular wage which was not enough for us to live on). The girls are getting SO much daddy time and it is so beautiful to watch my kids relationship with their daddy bloom like spring flowers. And, of course, it has been nice for me because I get to spend a lot more time with him and he helps out where he can (ie: watching said climbing two year old so I can make dinner without finding her scaling the bookcases after chopping the onions for stirfry!). The first month was pretty hard on me because our entire routine was totally thrown off having Jes home so much...everything that was predictable became completely unpredictable and for a while, the man was driving me nuts being in "my" space all the time. It was an interesting adjustment to go from having him gone from 5am to 7pm M-F to having him home 24/7. Recently I've come around to it and have actually started enjoying it. I have decided, however, that I need to start getting up with the kids every morning again instead of alternating sleeping in with Jes because I am starting to feel some anxiety and stress about what isn't getting done around here that should be. Sleeping until 10am some days is great, but then my entire day is thrown off and feels a lot shorter because I've lost 3 hours!

The children are great and growing like weeds. Nova is almost 4.5 and is very excited that she is probably starting school next fall. Yes...I did say the "S" word. I had a small emotional breakdown last month and decided that I have too much on my plate, so I've decided that we are probably going to try out kindergarten at the Calgary Waldorf School next September. I have a friend whose daughter goes there and she has nothing but good things to say about it and it feels right for now (when I don't dwell on it too much, that is....lol). I'm still waffling about it, but Nova is quite excited so I am going to swallow my unschooly ideals and let my baby have this experience. I keep having to remind myself that this is NOT a permenant decision and that I can change my mind if I decide it's not working for our family.
Faeryn is 2.5 and still my spit-fire kamikaze child. She incurred yet another head injury the other day by falling off the couch backwards and bouncing her head off the corner of the coffee table. Lovely. Thankfully she didn't need stitches this time. But damn, how head wounds bleed!! It's a good thing I'm not afraid of blood!
Indigo is 3 months old already! *sob!* My boy has now passed the 16lb mark (he was 16lbs 6oz a couple weeks ago when we weighed him out of curiosity at study group) and is just growing toooo fast. He is the cuddliest, smiliest little sweetheart I ever did lay my eyes upon and I just love him to bits. AND he has decided that sleeping through the night is a good idea! Holy crap! Who knew that an exclusively breastfed, non-CIO'd 3 month old would actually sleep through the night. Amazing. And lucky me ;) Now if only his sisters would catch the hint....

School is...well school isn't anything right now. I finished my coursework for Bio but have been totally avoiding studying for my midterm and final exams. I am ashamed to admit this! The thought of memorizing all that stuff is SO daunting to me and I am psyching myself out and making myself think that I can't possibly do it. Obviously if I would just buckle down and DO it I could, but that is apparently easier said than done. I honestly feel like I don't even know where to start, and I am kicking myself for going about this course all the wrong way. I should have been memorizing and studying the entire time, but instead I decided to do all the coursework out of the book and then go back and memorize. Stupid stupid idea in hindsight (I guess that's why they say that hindsight is 20/20 eh?). My goal for this week was to get my proctor form sent to my proctor because I somehow lost my other one, so I think I will go do that now so as not to procrastinate any further.
Otherwise, I have activated both the Midwives Assistant course and the Medical Terminology course, so I need to get cracking on those. I think the MA needs to get done first since it has no tests and will therefore not interfere with my memorizing all things Biology.

Anyways, that's life around here lately. And, be proud of me...I'm posting BEFORE midnight! Who'da thunk?! LOL