*thud*

...that would be the sound of my ass falling off the "healthy eating, no sugar" wagon. ARGH! why is this so difficult for me?! It's pathetic and frustrating.
Tomorrow, tomorrow...new start again. I slipped back into my old ways gradually over the last week or so. Bad bad bad. It started with me ending my focus on eating a protein-rich breakfast and ends with me eating ice cream for breakfast this morning. Yuck!
I post fat pics of myself on a board I go to and I was thoroughly disgusted looking at my naked self like that. The camera certainly doesn't lie. I know I am not in the worst shape ever, but I certainly can do better! And, moreover, I want to stop this cycle of binging/deprivation/binging and self-hatred. I have hated my body since I was a young kid and I don't want to feel that way towards myself anymore.

Tomorrow...no sugar, more outside movement, more water. I can do it.