I've got my birth video playing on another tab and I've got the tingles and shivers remembering the intense, crazy night that happened 1 year ago. I have vivid, whole body memories of Indigo's birth...the intensity of the contractions and speed at which they came...the warm water of the pool that cradled my body between contractions...the feeling of his head still inside of me, still enclosed by a squeaky, squishy amniotic sac that had been his home for 40weeks...the sensation of my water breaking beneath my fingers...his head suddenly moving down past my wide open cervix...the sweet, searing burn that accompanied his arrival. His sticky, vernix covered body; warm, wet, wriggling in my arms. I've never had a baby so coated in vernix...he was covered! His ears were full of it too. I will never forget the way it felt to reach inside my body and feel his head, wiggling beneath my touch, worming his way slowly through my bones and out into the light.
His was the birth I had imagined myself having...it was healing and empowering and delicious. And crazy and intense and mindblowing ;) I felt like a million fucking dollars for days afterwards...I could have ran a 10K, I was so pumped! Homebirth is amazing.
This baby boy has taught me so much in the last year. I am so blessed and grateful that he chose me to be his mama. He truly completes our family.
Life is beautiful <3
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