Thursday, February 10, 2011
I'm trying to figure out where to go with this blog, and with this life of mine. Everything has turned topsy-turvy once again and I am feeling lost, unsettled, unfocused, uninspired. I know I want to feel productive, useful, happy. I just have no idea how to get there or where to go from here. 2.5 years into the upheaval of life as I knew it and I feel like I am no farther ahead than I was when I began. I have grown into myself a lot, but I still feel such an sense of... something. Unsettled is the best way I can describe it. I feel like I am in a constant state of just coping, without ever really making any progress beyond that. Part of me would like to believe that some peace and calm are ahead for me, but I have been repeating that to myself for over two years now without much fruition. There have been periods where I have felt mostly okay... mostly like myself, filled with hope and love. The past year especially had me feeling like I was starting to hit my stride, that I was coming into a place in my heart that felt right and good. Life has shifted again though, as it does, and now I'm back in the stage of re-evaluating and taking inventory. Some days I'm okay... others less so. I am trying to be gentle with myself and give myself the time and space I need to navigate my way out of this place and into another. I'm not accomplishing much, but that's okay for now. Right now I just need to focus on my breath and my heart. The sun always rises again tomorrow, and no matter what, I will be okay.
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Let me know if you figure it out, cuz I still haven't. You'd think by 40 I'd know what I wanted to be when I growed up, eh? :-)
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