Ok, so I alluded to some big things in a post below, but never actually came back to clarify. Partly because I haven't been ready to type out the whole sordid story yet, and partly because I've just been too busy to sit down and type out the whole sordid story. And...partly because I suck at blogging...but you knew that already ;)
I'm not going to get into allll the gory details, but the long and short of it is that Jesse and I separated in August...he moved out into his own place in September. It was his choice and decision to do so, and it left me shocked and devastated, to say the least. I don't know what it going to happen to us, but we are working on it together and I am hopeful that we will reconcile. I am hanging in there in my newfound position of "single mama"...there are good days and there are rough days. My kids are doing well, though, and for that I am grateful.
On the up side, I am really enjoying doing some minor renos in the house without having to consult or compromise with Jesse about things. I got rid of half of my sectional couch, rearranged my entire living room, bought and built a wooden shelf at Ikea for my kitchen and bought some plants for said shelf! My house feels so open and fresh right now, it's really nice.
I've also started my preceptorship with the midwives! Last week was my first week and it was SO FUN! I got to take blood pressures, palpate bellies, determine the lie of the babies, measure fundal height and listen for heartbeats with both the Doppler and the fetoscope. It has been great for motivating me to persevere through my classes and get things submitted. I have set a goal for myself to finish Holistic Health and History of Midwifery by December 12, which is just over 6 weeks away. Eek!! So far I have met my goals of submitting the sections I intended to and it feels awesome to move forward again.
All in all, some big changes occurring around here. I'm trying to breathe, take it a day at a time and just roll with it. I know that good things are in store for me.
1 comment:
You should really be closer!! As a recent single mama myself, I could use the like-minded buddies! Glad to hear your voice again. Thanks for blogging.
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